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Letting Go 5 Years Worth Of Hard Work

April 15, 2017

Something I hold dearest; played the biggest part in the hardest and most fruitful stage of my life. I want to let go. I am desperate to let go and maybe, start again.

I needed the change. I was starting to stress over a past I could not change, who I was before is not who I am now and I feel sick knowing it’s part of my work, part of something I should be fully proud of. Kinda embarrassed not gonna lie. Though I love that we have the privilege to look back at how much we’ve grown at the click of a button, and I surely am proud of who I’ve become but I wasn’t proud of who I was. That’s when I started to take breaks from YouTube.

Felt like shit being away from the only thing you feel like you’ve achieved so far in life. The worries that came with it and the pressure you splash on yourself when you’re wanting to come back. It almost feels like a relationship you want so bad that’s just not working out. With slightly over a thousand subscribers but only that little view counts, I really don’t know what went wrong but that definitely added to the urge to leave everything behind so that’s exactly what I decided to do.

Yes, I am letting go of my old YouTube channel – one I’ve put in nothing but 5 years worth of effort and love into. I won’t delete the channel or any of the videos because I’m such a memory hoarder and now here’s my new YouTube channel; no custom URL yet, so ugly I know, but if you still care at all, do subscribe. See you all there for a new adventure x


Life

Being an Army Girlfriend

November 5, 2016

I see many girls leaving, many boys crying or ranting. I’ve been through the army journey with a number of guy friends where only one manage to get out uninfluenced, and the only friend who has gotten Kelvin’s approval. I heard the horrors of bad influences and saw a lot myself as friends of NSmen, but since I wasn’t always around the friends in NS, I couldn’t understand the hardship behind being in a relationship with a man (AKA how it’s like being an army girlfriend) in the army until Kelvin got enlisted.

Kelvin and I known each other since the very beginning of time. Became an item when we were 14 but my wild interests let him down and my raccoon eyes scare him away. It took me six years to find my way back to him, and six years for him to finally pick his balls up to confess how he is my sun and I am his moon. 

That was obviously just the summary of us. I smell fried chicken. Ok let’s get back on track.
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The Adult Life

July 8, 2016

I’m huge about talking life, I especially love talking about my life.
Here are a few things I learnt that I wish I had experiences on earlier in life.

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I Miss, But I Don’t Want To Go Back

November 7, 2015

Ten years ago, I met this boy. Slightly over eight years ago, we chanced upon one another and things started to blossom. Seven years ago, our intense friendship ended. Three years ago I blogged about the misery it has caused me. Today, it still hurts a little. Continue Reading

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Inspiration Struggle

September 25, 2015

I rely a lot on inspiration (probably way too much) and I don’t know how to live without it.
I kid you not, it drives me insane having to look for inspiration and get me nuts when I struggle looking for it.
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